In Which Our Heroine Is Turned Away

Project Title: The Mistress of Frosthaven
Genre: YA – Dark Fantasy
Words Today: 1,442
Running Total: 45,835
Scrap Draft: (V1.0 = 31,142), V2.0 = 13,725

Pre-writing notes: I do not want to write tonight. UGH. Really, really—just, no. I’ve got a lot of things spinning in my mind and I’d really just like to flush them out with TV. I want to not do this. I want to not need to have to do this. I want to curl up in bed and just….not…for a while…

Challenging night tonight. Just had a hard time getting into any sort of flow with the words, though in the end, I made some progress. I can tell I’m glossing over things, though, which bothers me, and I suspect I’ll come back to it because of that. Rawr.

Missed last week, but am back now! The last two weeks have been something of a mixed bag. I’ve kind of hit that point in the story where glaring issues are starting to pop up that I’m going to need to spend some serious time thinking about, but after a couple days wrestling with a few of these issues, I’ve realized they may have to be Draft 2 issues, because otherwise I’m going to stall-out hard. SO! With a few tweaks in mind, I’m plunging forward. I’ve got a fairly detailed train-of-consciousness outline up to the climax which I’m clinging to like a tangled root off the side of a cliff, and so far just knowing it’s there (even when I deviate) is so, so helpful.

This week, I’m working on: Plugging ahead. At this point, I’m just trying to get a good chunk of words done and maybe–maybe!–hit midpoint by the end of the month. (My outline significantly bumped up the midpoint, so that’s helpful.)

This week, I’m inspired by: Bargue drawings, watercolor, and composition. Been really fixated on art lately, as I haven’t been indulging that impulse for much, much too long. Am signing up for a drawing class probably in July, and am out-of-my-mind excited about that (and about getting out of the house one night a week to do something entirely different). I love reading about composition, too, and the methods of guiding the viewer’s eye; I’m 95% certain there’s some writing-applicable elements there, but haven’t quite parsed how to adapt it to text.

This week, I’ve been avoiding: Ugh, back to reading (sort of–I’ve been reading about art a lot, but not fiction, so much). After finishing a couple books in the last couple weeks, I’ve gone full slug again. But my audiobook finally became available again, so I’m going to try to find ways to fit that in (and also tackle the other thing I’ve been avoiding: housework). Have determined that the ebook I’ve got currently is about a hundred times too creepy for me to read right before bed, so I need to work that in earlier in the day when the sun is bright and shiny.

 

In Which Our Heroine Boards a Train

Project Title: The Mistress of Frosthaven
Genre: YA – Dark Fantasy
Words Today: 1,224
Running Total: 44,393
Scrap Draft: (V1.0 = 31,142), V2.0 = 13,725

After several days of stewing and writing various outlines and interviews with characters and obsessing, I think I’ve finally hit that point where I say: screw it. I’m writing this damn thing regardless of whether or not everything at this point makes sense. Maybe I’ll have to rewrite a lot of it in the future (maybe = definitely), but for now, my main goal is to get something on paper, because there aren’t any easy answers to be found right now, and I can’t keep stalling. The work will out, I suppose.

I really, really, REEEEEEEALLY wanted to post tonight: “I’ve decided to skip today and swap it for Sunday, since I’ll have time on Sunday, and blah blah blah,” but I just…couldn’t quite do it. When I get into a rhythm, I really need to keep with it, otherwise any habit I’ve formed falls instantly apart, and it becomes so much easier to not work. I’ve got my weekend, anyway, and I need those days to just…not. But weekdays, those are work days, whether I know what I’m doing or not. (Hint: I don’t. At all.)

In Which the Mistress Gets the Microphone

Project Title: The Mistress of Frosthaven
Genre: YA – Dark Fantasy
Words Today: 1,133
Running Total: 43,169
Scrap Draft: (V1.0 = 31,142), V2.0 = 13,725

Well, tonight decided to try something new and write from an entirely new POV just to see if I could shake up some info on my antagonist. It was an interesting experience, though I’m still lacking some key data. But it did establish a hint at her voice and also at some interesting, inhuman traits I’d like to capitalize on. It all goes into scrap for now, but it was an interesting exercise all the same. Will have to see where we end up tomorrow night.

In Which Our Heroine Stalks the Night

Project Title: The Mistress of Frosthaven
Genre: YA – Dark Fantasy
Words Today: 1,472
Running Total: 43,169
Scrap Draft: (V1.0 = 31,142), V2.0 = 10,788

Still really struggling with some of the plot elements I haven’t quite hammered out yet, but opted tonight (after spending the last two days in a brainfog trying to work *something* sensible out, to no avail) for some new words. They’re a bit on the rough end, and I’m definitely trying to cram way too much past info into this segment, but at least it’s forward momentum, which I desperately need after two days of plot-bog.

I suspect I need to answer some key questions about the antagonist at this point, but it feels like every question I ask just ends up eliciting about four other questions, and I’m worn out from spinning on them with no concrete progress. Alright, not no progress, but less than I’d like, and less solidly dependable than I’d like. I feel a bit like a rock climber propped up on some unsteady toe-holds, searching a blank wall face desperately for a finger-hold, but finding only too-shallow cracks or having obvious grabs snap off under the slightest shift of weight. It’s exhausting. The arms are trembling from the exertion, and I seriously need to crawl up onto a ledge to rest for a bit, but don’t see any easy ways to get to a ledge. Buh. And I can’t help thinking THERE MUST BE ANSWERS, clear, concise answers that will make my brain go AH-HA! but so far, nothing but days of static.

Still working out some of the kinks for moving forward in Act Two. Some of the original outline just doesn’t fit anymore, and instead of jamming it into place, I’d rather listen to the characters and see what they’d be willing (or–more often–not willing) to do. It’s twisting the story, though, and I’m struggling to work out a timeline that makes sense, but the new material I’ve outlined is significantly more active and interesting than the previous version, so perhaps I go with it for now and worry about expected plot-points later…

No new words or major changes today–just needed to sit down and do some deliberate thinking about some gaps in the plot. Came up with some freaking fantastic twists over the weekend…but of course none of them resolve the main issue I’ve run into with this particular chunk of the story. SO. Spend a good hour and a half puzzling and puzzling and have come up with…nnnneyah, not much. Did lots of research (which feels fruitless at the moment, but some of it did rule out what I don’t want to do), and am kind of brain-drained and annoyed. Need to really take a look at the plot structure I’d planned on and see if maybe there’s another way to work it, or to enhance it, so it doesn’t get repetitive. Have some great new details for later in the plot! (*mumbles* If I ever get there…)

The annoying thing is, I’m not even sure how much these details actually even matter. I mean, they’re kind of peripheral to the main storyline, so I feel like wasting much time on them is somewhat pointless, but I’m having a hard time just glossing over them, too. Meh.

This is kind of the opposite spectrum of the “This-Is-Amazing” Zone High. It’s just…blah and flat and sludgy and buh. Bloated with facts and figures which seem to have no bearing on the actual story, and creatively constipated on any clear idea on how to make progress through it. Which I remind myself is neither a foreign feeling while writing, nor is it the end-all-be-all feeling that will somehow dominate. I’ve felt this way before and sometimes it just takes some thought, or jumping ahead, which I may need to do for a while to keep feeling like I’m making progress…