March 2009


Weather was on my mind today. It was a dark, gloomy, rainy day–just the kind of day one should expect in Oregon in March. At work, I sit at a desk that faces a series of floor-to-ceiling windows, so the weather is often a focal point for those moments of distraction from the computer screen. Sometimes it rained hard enough to hear through the roof. Sometimes, it only misted. The movement of the clouds–dark grey over light grey–held my attention the most, I think. 

But in particular, as the rain pounded down on the roof, I remembered reading that Susanna Clarke, author of Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norell–one of my all-time favorite modern fantasy novels–said that she wrote best when it was raining. A rainy day was her comfortable writing niche. I believe she even had the sound of rain on a tape she’d play when she had to write, but the weather decided to be stubbornly sunny. 

It makes me wonder: what is my writing weather?

I don’t think it’s rainy, but then there are so many different kinds of rainy. There is the rain that falls mid-February, melting the built-up snow, which makes me want to curl up in a quilt and read for hours. Then there are the Manoa rains, which always carry that refreshing breath of air–almost sweet, almost tastable–but which dry fast on the concrete sidewalks baked in the hot sun that inevitably follows minutes later. There are the smokey-breath cold autumn rains, which patter on the bright orange and yellow leaves of the changing maples and birches, and turn the pine tree trunks from mute grey to moody black. Can’t forget about the summer rains, sweeping in behind the late afternoon sunlight, carried by the grumbling, menacing clouds and swept from side to side in sheets by the heady, O2-charged air of the looming thunderstorm. 

But then I’m not sure it’s exactly sunny days. There are moments when I think an early summer morning, when the sunlight casts dancing leaf shadows across the slate tiles of the bathroom floor, might just be my writing weather. But then, I rarely sit down to write then. I want to savor the aesthetics of the moment, breathe the cool morning air, feel the leaping shadows chill one moment and the sun-patch warm the next, savor the quiet…

I feel completely different, though, when it’s late summer and the sun has sunk behind the trees, when the air is hot and thick, and the cicadas are buzzing, when the dragonflies whiz to and fro catching mosquitos, and the chains of the porch swing creak softly as I rock. Or on a winter morning, when the skies are bright, blinding blue and the ice-crusted snow and glass-dipped trees sparkle like a crystal shop beneath the blazing spotlight. Autumn, when you can smell dry leaves, wood smoke, apples, even the hint of snow in the air, and the deep, long shadows are so cold, while the sunlight is pale yellow, and cool to the touch. 

There are tons of moments like that for me; how can I pick just one? I think my writing weather is on days that aren’t like any of those, the ones when I don’t mind tucking myself inside, back to the window, head down, hands on the keyboard. I think I prefer to savor those days and imprint them in my mind, so that I can write about them later when I miss them.

Writing News:

I was too excited to wait for the Writing Stuff at the bottom, so here it is: Fantasist Enterprises is moving full-steam ahead on its production of Fantastical Visions Anthology IV. The cover art is done, and can be seen HERE on Stephanie Pui-Mun Law’s website, as can the illustrations for my story “Imaginix”  [ 1, 2] which will appear in the anthology. 

Check out the line-up and the blurb on the new FV IV website. 

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Lots of things going on here at the moment! My sister is up visiting from SoCal for her spring break, so we’re trying to give her a good time while she’s here, despite the clouds and the cold temperature. ^_^ Friday, when she flew in, we took her out to eat at India House on Yamhill and 11th (I think it’s 11th). It’s a great little place, and the food is delicious. Andy and I found it by luck for his birthday this past September, and we frequent it when we can afford it. 

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I am not going to lie: the office after hours, by myself, is a kind of creepy place. Apart from the door down the hall that always sounds like a little girl shouting “Mom!”, or the creaky air vents that sound like footsteps, when all the lights besides mine go off, I can’t help but start to think of what I’d do if I looked up and in the reflection of the front window I saw some disembodied figure lurking behind me in the dark conference room. *shudder* On the plus side, I can come up with some pretty fun ghost story ideas in the few minutes before I shut all that kind of thinking out of my head so I don’t get the heebie-jeebies. 

Oh! In fun news: I cut my hair yesterday. Well, *I* didn’t, but the nice hairdresser lady did! It’s almost spring (tomorrow! yay!), so it’s that time of year when I cut off all my hair and run around telling everyone “I LOVE not feeling hair on my neck!” Yes, it may disturb some–the running around talking to strangers part, not the hair part–but I think I’m sweet. ^_^ lol Will post pictures shortly.

Pulled a no-lunch (did eat, just didn’t take off the time) today, plus two extra hours at the end of the day to save myself some PTO time for when I don’t feel like I’ve been run over by the flu-dozer. And yes–I’m feeling much better, thanks for asking. But with no lunch, that means no writing, and coming home this late means no time for submissions today. Sunday is my EP1C 5UBM15S10NS S1FT1NG AW3SOME MAR4THON OF DO0M!11!!! so I can finally finish up my queue. At least, that’s the plan. Might as well use this time when we’re not getting new submissions to get myself in gear and prepped for the new delicious onslaught! ^_^

No lunch also means I didn’t do any writing, or at least, I didn’t put any words down. But this last destroyed week has gotten the mind thinking again. I’m hoping it won’t be long until I can finish cranking out “A Maze of Invisible Walls”–I’m pretty much done, interest wise, and really want to move onto something else for a while–and maybe, maybe if I’m *really* productive, I’ll get Thief Dilemma Chapter 17 (untitled) finished and posted. Wouldn’t that be nice? I think so! I’ve got both 17 and 18 planned for most of the characters, but I need to brainstorm still on one of the others. Once I get that squared away, I’ll have all the sections I need for 17.

Next story I write is going to be under 7.5k. I need to practice short stories so much more. And I’ve got a ton I could try out–I just need to really focus on execution.

Been dying to get my hands back on THE NOVEL DRAFT, too–strangely enough. At the end of this last year, I thought I wouldn’t want to even *think* about it for at least six months, but dang it if I’m not really excited about fixing it. Still will hold out for now, though. 

Will be creating a new email soon to reflect the new married name rather than old pen name. Oh, those silly little details!  I’ll probably just use it for writing submissions for now, but I’ll let you know when it officially changes over.

Still sick. Better than I was on Wednesday/Thursday, but then I guess that’s to be expected, now that the fever’s gone. At least I got into work today for part of the day. Managed to hang in there until about 1 o’clock, but went down fast after that. Got home, called the doctor to make an appointment and then went to bed. The appointment is tomorrow, so I’ll probably have a miraculous recovery overnight and then they’ll just think I’m crazy. 

I really, really, really hate being sick. And I hate missing work because of it. I just want things to get back to normal again.

The cover art for the Fantastical Visions IV anthology is done! Check it out on Stephanie Pui-Mun Law’s website here! It’s so pretteh…and shiiiiiny….

No, I’m not on drugs, but I’m still sick. No fever, now just a bad head cold that’s moved into my chest. Awesome. Also, on less shiny news, “Earthbound” got bounced from its last submission place, so it’s off elsewhere, and “Mimicry” is on it’s way out to its first market.

Also: I like Jell-o. 

-End Statement-

I’m sick. Somehow I managed to get the flu, and since yesterday have been enjoying all the wonderful perks of a fever and no energy, drippy nose, and general achiness. Yum. Today, still have a fever, but it’s the achiness that’s driving me mad. Makes it hard to get comfortable. Bah.

At least today I can look at a computer screen without my head yelling at me. Figured I’d post the latest painting I’ve done–the one from last weekend (and a few weekends before that–it’s been a long project).

So there it is. Posted the Work-In-Progress shot Andy took a few weeks ago, too.

Now I’m going to try to rest some more… >.<

So it’s finally the weekend (thank youuuuuu!) and I’m so excited to have time to myself. Work was fine this week–busy, but not as insane as last week, so good! Now, I’m hanging out with Andy and Kaku and later we’re heading out to do who knows what. At the moment, they’re playing NEED FOR SPEED: Most Wanted, which is awesome, I must say. 

And we finally have our car registered in Oregon! We’re official Oregonians now! HAHAHAHA! One more thing to cross off our perpetual “to-do” list. 

I’m hungry. I want a snack. Hmmm…. *goes to unlock stash of Girl Scout Cookies*

Writing Stuff: (more…)

I really need to stop over-thinking my creative projects. Like…now. It’s driving me insane, and if I just sit back and go with things, they seem to end up better than I remember, upon returning to them. They still may not be great, but they’ll pleasantly surprise me. 

Blah, and now I’m whining instead of getting anything done. Gotta *love* that. >.o 

Few hundred words on the “novella”. Can you tell it didn’t go terribly well? ^_-

It has been so busy lately. My life seems to swing between either super busy or super dull within a few days of each other. I think I’d rather find a nice happy balance, but at least the busy has been a lot of fun. ^_^ Hung out with a friend yesterday and went down to the Portland Museum of Art, which was *awesome* and made me want to paint all the more. Did finish the latest painting today, but I think I’ll wait a little while to post it. I still have a long way to go, skill-wise. >.o 

Finished the second Edith Wharton novel I was working through, The Custom of the Country, though I must say the ending struck me as a little slipshod, like she didn’t know how to end this one so she just sort of stopped. Needless to say, it didn’t have that feeling of finality that Ethan Frome and House of Mirth both have. Huge list of books to read piling up–not sure if I’m going to continue with another Edith Wharton (the book I have from the library also contains Age of Innocence which looks a lot shorter than The Custom of the Country, so maybe I’ll try to plow through that before it’s due next Saturday). 

Looked and did taxes today. T_T Haaaaaaaate taxes. But I guess that’s the usual response at this time of year.

Oh! As a side note: Apex has finally got Nate Kenyon’s novella PRIME up for pre-order! I have been waiting for this one, because I have a soft spot for cyberpunk sci-fi, and this looks to be a really, *really* good one. Plus… IT’s A NOVELLA. Which you all know by now is something I’m absolutely obsessed with at the moment. 

Speaking of…

Writing Stuff:

Friday, 1:00PM, Clackamas, OR: 15k into the current novella project and I suddenly realize that one of the characters has disappeared. He’s there at the beginning, stands around a little in the first 10-12 pages, but then after that, he’s just gone. Vanished. And the worst part is, I didn’t even miss him when he left. 

1:12, Clackamas, McDonald’s Drive-Through: After a bit of pondering, recognizing that if the character is missing, it’s because he isn’t important enough, I come to the conclusion that I must make the choice between two options: 1) Remove the character, or 2) Make him more important to the story. I know I don’t want to remove him, because he’s so cool (in theory), and because he represents so much. SO, that means I have to make him more important. 

1:30, Portland office, Break room: It occurs to me that making him more important won’t actually be that hard–theoretically. I’ve thought about it, and with the new stuff I’ve come up with, both he and the Main Character have a heck of a lot more personality. Always a plus. However, this comes with a trade: it means reworking the first 15k words to reflect the changes. Doesn’t have to be *completely* rewritten, but portions will, and all of it will need at least minor tweaking. Bummer. Positive: The story will definitely be stronger and the MC’s personality will have more definition and rationale behind it, plus it makes it a little more of a coming-of-age story, which with this current subject, I think works well. 

But still-! So much more work. >.<